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It's been a rough two months...

and after my "break-down" with my parents yesterday who SURPRISINGLY comforted me...i feel a peace. i was carrying so much on my shoulders and my heart...no wonder it was bringing me down. To finally voice my insecurities to them and put down the mask of Independence was a huge sigh of relief. 

Amy's heart and brain cried in unison, "So now what, Amy?" 
All Amy could do was sigh and with fear in her voice she whispered, "I wish i knew."

I wish i could fast forward these pesky years and just LIVE. But no...being an adult means being plagued with responsibilities. Taxes, bills, living expenses, etc.  There has to be some alternative.

This morning was a brand new day. Now i know what to do. This change will be for the best i'm sure...at least that's what i keep telling myself. It's for the best, Amy. You're making the right decision.



Prissy painted my fingernails "bitch red". Somehow it has empowered me. who knew?
By the way, she's an AMAZING artist. I was absolutely BLOWN AWAY by her work. 

Ok let's roll call it...
Amy's GIRRRRLS

Lydia!
Mona!
Nena!
Ashley!
Cynthia!
Prissy!

You best believe these girls are the SHIT! Beautiful, bold, hilarious, and best of all MY best friends =D




Thomas. Oh Thomas. Besides God and friends, he's pretty much the glue that's holding me together at this point. i've said it before and i'll say it again. I have NEVER felt this way about someone in my life. I...i don't even know where to begin. 

He offered to pay for my dorms so i could live closer to him.
He offered to pay my half of the rent so i could move in with him.
He even offered to MOVE to the VALLEY because he said "three years is WAY too long to be away from you"

Safe to say he's definitely different. I spent a portion of my spring break with him. He paid for EVERYTHING. I've never had that before. It was like a 4 day long date. It felt odd letting a guy completely take care of me. He took me to his parents house. I slept in his old bed, hung out with his AWESOME family, ran around town with his best friends and learned so much about him.  

Highlights of the trip:

-lying in bed with him and noticing his curls created a heart shape
-waking him up with kisses
-being taken care of
-GLADLY NOT WEARING THE PANTS IN THE RELATIONSHIP
-having him hold my hand in front of his parents
-having his parents love me
-meeting his best friends
-driving back to Austin with only an hour of sleep
-driving back to Austin with him holding my hand the entire 3 1/2 hours =)
-the emotional i-can't-live-without-you kisses
-the 90983487293879287593409384 i love yous
-allowing me to be silly and to play
-late night drives
-being in love

I love him. And that's all you and i need to know.




Hugs and kisses,
Amy Renee Hernandez

 

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