<3 YoU'LL rEmEmBeR Me LiKe A MeLoDy<3 [entries|friends|calendar] Mexican formerly known as MaRiA ToRTiLLa [ website | Muh Space! ] [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

"oh what a day....what a day, what a day...." [17 Sep 2008|05:39pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Erykah Badu...of course ]   ever feel like what you wanted...isn't exactly what you wanted...but you stick to your guns anyway just to prove a point? ...yeah... Life has been going alright... this semester is a whole lot more bearable than my previous... and love....is on pause right now. I have my reasons. They're not very good...but i have them. but in the end...i know it'll be ok. somethings missing right now. Ugh... it's like listening to a scale and they stop on the leading tone...JUST FUCKING FINISH IT!!! That's kinda how i feel right now...hahaha weird. i love blogging....because most of it is pathetic bitching...hahaha if you can't talk to your friends about it...why not post it on the internet for the world to see? I love technology. Things will be looking up soon...now...off to soak up this good weather and have a cup of cinnamon and vanilla coffee xoxo Amy Le Singer 2 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

<3 [16 Jul 2008|07:18pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Hairspray =) ]  I'm having one of those motivating / i miss him so much days .... i accomplished everything i wanted to accomplish today =)  ::in cartman voice:: Hooray!  i picked up a new book today =) i can't wait to start it the end of the summer is winding down VERY slowly but...it's winding down with a positive spin for me.  I think i'm gonna just keep overloading myself with things to do. I feel better when i have a heavier work load. Is this bad? Are these tendencies of a workaholic? meh.... NEZZY!!!!!! if you read this, i saw someone yesterday in my class that look EXACTLY like you from behind! For a split second i got REALLY happy because i thought you had come down and took my exact same class...but then....she turned around and....wah wah wah.... My whole body is sore...i feel challenged...finally. I love life. 2 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

"One simply MUST perform when the spotlight is thrust upon them." [30 Jun 2008|09:03pm] [ mood | relaxed ] [ music | May-December by Mos Def ] I don't understand how you want me to "mind my own business" when you MAKE it my business....you need to figure yourself out before starting something with me. Obviously you aren't making any sense. And obviously you misunderstood EVERYTHING Mona and i were saying. It's sad...really. Plans for this week..... See Mona and E-steph Ace final do summer II stuff give Blue his present figure out how to download that damn adobe flash player thingy! fourth of july party? Possibly maybe... i had SOOOOOO much fun yesterday at Nadia's baby shower...i'm starting to LOVE my co-worker's family....i've already been "adopted" as a daughter...NICEST PEOPLE EVER! hahaha i love them. No Mona till Thursday....wah wah waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh....lame.  Rydia is down! WOOO...i missed her...too bad for my situation though...We had our usual date today... sushi... girl talk... coldstone... laughing... and of course bitching hahahaha  loves it. I want to overload myself....i think i will. I work better that way... p.s. Everyone should listen to May-December by Mos Def.....it is simply amazing. This is the kind of music i've been into lately...and i love it. =D  KiSs mE

=D [27 Jun 2008|02:30pm] [ mood | satisfied ] [ music | Appletree- Erykah Badu ] I may be a bitch...but i'm true to myself.  i win =)  KiSs mE

"She's cleva.... always on ya' mind...." [26 Jun 2008|08:28pm] [ mood | Ready ] [ music | The sweet sweet sound of freedom ]  So after reading my last entry i decided it was time to update a little... I'm keeping my major...i've had a ROUGH semester to say the least...and i survived it.  This month....::sigh:: i think God decided to make my life crazy for a little bit...here's what made it crazy... -ex boyfriend coming back in the picture -ex "lover" back in the picture -dealing with long distance relationship =( -money issues -work! -math...bleh -temptation with ex -being faithful =D -rekindling the flame with my boyfriend =D -parents issues -Ivry issues -FINALLY being able to stand up for myself =) This month has been an emotional roller coaster!!!! But....i am happy. Happier than i've been in a long, long, long, long, long, LONG time =) Thomas, Vince, Long and Petey came down to see me....i'm still riding the high =) For three days i had a REAL LIFE boyfriend. Let me tell you girls something...  DON'T EVER TAKE THIS FOR GRANTED!!!!  *Holding hands *Actually SEEING each other...even if it's for a couple of mins *Kissing *Going on dates Everything i know about relationships was thrown out the window with Thomas...he's changed me...in a good way...I've denied EVERY temptation i've had with other guys...and usually that's not like me. Obviously...he's different. I love him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is how i know that i'm whipped... We were walking to my car and i couldn't stop kissing him. I knew in the back of my mind that i wasn't gonna see him for a long while. We finally said our good-byes and parted. 30 seconds after i pull out of the parking lot....this feeling in the pit of my stomach rose...i started breathing heavy and suddenly burst into tears. I was literally sobbing down the street because i knew he was truly leaving.  I want no other man.  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ So on to the subject of my parents. I won't give details because...it's too much to type.  but two nights ago...a weight had been lifted. I no longer feel guilty...i no longer feel the need to stay and be a "good daughter".  The cord has been cut. Amy is ready to spread her wings. Finally.  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Friends.... ...how many of us have them? =D Blue came back into my life this month. It was pretty surreal...that night it was like nothing had ever happened...we were talking and joking and carrying on! And to be honest...i was over everything. I don't hate him...i actually love hanging out with him now...Him and i have both grown up and...i really enjoy hanging out with him. It's sad that he's actually the man i wanted him to be so many years ago...but that's just the way things happen i suppose...But i've spoken with him and he knows that all we'll ever be is friends. I'm happy that we're over it =D That's what GROWING UP is ALL ABOUT.  My Mona...i never thought her and i would be as close as we've become...she's been my joking around buddy, my advice giver, my shoulder to cry on, my venting whore, my...well BEST friend. Now...some stuff has happened this month and as her best friend...it makes me disappointed. Shouldn't this stuff be left in HIGH SCHOOL? You'd think that a year away from home would make one grow up and see the big picture...apparently i was mistaken. While you're throwing your tantrums...she's here trying to make it work. You're the one to blame...i'm sorry to say. A friendship takes two....not one person sucking up to you 24/7. Again my THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS...."if you don't like it....don't read my journal". =) Lydia...no matter how much distance is between us you will ALWAYS continue to be my heart and soul! I love how no matter what, we can ALWAYS pick up where we left off....i trust you with EVERYTHING...i can't wait to be in SA with you =D BFF "See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit My ganny told me that when I was only a youth I dont walk around trying to be what Im not I dont waste my time trying to get what you got I work at pleasin me, cause I cant please you  and thats why I do what I do My soul flies free like a willow tree Doo wee doo wee doo wee" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I feel stronger. I feel happy. I feel empowered.  I will no longer believe that i "can't" ...i can do ANYTHING i put my mind to. Your psychological restraints are GONE. Thanks mom and dad.  I have friends that love me and will take care of me the moment i need them to. REAL friends that go beyond the call of friendship and go straight to FAMILY. I love you guys so much....really i do.  I say this to anyone who needs a boost in their life right now...if things seem at their worst...remember they can only get better.  ALWAYS follow your dreams and don't let ANYONE tell you..."you can't". Love Always, Amy Le Singer 9 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

Amy Le ??? [24 Apr 2008|07:36pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Tick of time- The Kooks ] So...a lot has happened...i don't even know where to begin... -absolutley HATED this semester.  -found out a lot about myself -am SO thankful for Nena, Mona, Lydia and Thomas for keeping me sane and happy =D -found out what true love is -fixing myself physically -i have had a BLAST with my friends -found out i'm not the only one feeling this way (thanks Victoria!) -found out some odd news about Richie...i'm pretty surprised that you actually DID it...but even more surprised that you haven't told me yet....what are you waiting for? This semester has toyed with my emotions. After teaching with Gloria...i have to say that i absolutley LOVE teaching...but i absolutley HATE teaching. I think i need to do this as a side job. Not as my major. I've made up my mind...i'm changing my major. To what you ask? ....i wish i knew. A wise decision? Maybe not to you...but to me it's a sigh of relief. You do not KNOW what i've been through! Next Wednesday will be 1 year with Thomas =)  Who knew it would get this far... i know i say this a lot in here but I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS WAY FOR ANYONE!  It scares me sometimes...but...i love the dude! hahahaha! "it's far too early in the morning, to be trying to call you... and far too early in the daytime to be thinking about you... but i am..." Sister got her wedding dress already! i almost cried when i saw it! i'm so happy for her... ajdkfjaoieavhnoaiuejra;ediujfasdfaksjdrfaiejfasdkfasldkjfaoeifa juries english papers loans gas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! those are the things stressing me out right now!  i hate money... ...but i LOVE my friends, Thomas and AMAZING MUSIC!  i LOVE these quotes...here we go! "A bird does not sing because it has an answer. It sings because it has a song. "   "Use what talents you possess: the woods would be very silent if no birds sang there except those that sang best. " -Henry Van Dyke Love,  Amy Renee KiSs mE

Let go, let go, jump in, now what you waiting for? [25 Mar 2008|09:06pm] [ mood | ready ] [ music | Frou Frou- Let Go ] It's been a rough two months... and after my "break-down" with my parents yesterday who SURPRISINGLY comforted me...i feel a peace. i was carrying so much on my shoulders and my heart...no wonder it was bringing me down. To finally voice my insecurities to them and put down the mask of Independence was a huge sigh of relief.  Amy's heart and brain cried in unison, "So now what, Amy?"  All Amy could do was sigh and with fear in her voice she whispered, "I wish i knew." I wish i could fast forward these pesky years and just LIVE. But no...being an adult means being plagued with responsibilities. Taxes, bills, living expenses, etc.  There has to be some alternative. This morning was a brand new day. Now i know what to do. This change will be for the best i'm sure...at least that's what i keep telling myself. It's for the best, Amy. You're making the right decision. Prissy painted my fingernails "bitch red". Somehow it has empowered me. who knew? By the way, she's an AMAZING artist. I was absolutely BLOWN AWAY by her work.  Ok let's roll call it... Amy's GIRRRRLS Lydia! Mona! Nena! Ashley! Cynthia! Prissy! You best believe these girls are the SHIT! Beautiful, bold, hilarious, and best of all MY best friends =D Thomas. Oh Thomas. Besides God and friends, he's pretty much the glue that's holding me together at this point. i've said it before and i'll say it again. I have NEVER felt this way about someone in my life. I...i don't even know where to begin.  He offered to pay for my dorms so i could live closer to him. He offered to pay my half of the rent so i could move in with him. He even offered to MOVE to the VALLEY because he said "three years is WAY too long to be away from you" Safe to say he's definitely different. I spent a portion of my spring break with him. He paid for EVERYTHING. I've never had that before. It was like a 4 day long date. It felt odd letting a guy completely take care of me. He took me to his parents house. I slept in his old bed, hung out with his AWESOME family, ran around town with his best friends and learned so much about him.   Highlights of the trip: -lying in bed with him and noticing his curls created a heart shape -waking him up with kisses -being taken care of -GLADLY NOT WEARING THE PANTS IN THE RELATIONSHIP -having him hold my hand in front of his parents -having his parents love me -meeting his best friends -driving back to Austin with only an hour of sleep -driving back to Austin with him holding my hand the entire 3 1/2 hours =) -the emotional i-can't-live-without-you kisses -the 90983487293879287593409384 i love yous -allowing me to be silly and to play -late night drives -being in love I love him. And that's all you and i need to know. Hugs and kisses, Amy Renee Hernandez   KiSs mE

Best weekend ever! [22 Jan 2008|08:25pm] [ mood | In Love ] [ music | Every lovey dovey song ever made ] I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW!!!! ...Especially Thomas, Pete and Lydia.... This past weekend was absolutely amazing. I'm STILL walking on air... Amy is sheepishly happy =)  KiSs mE

here we go. [16 Jan 2008|09:06am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Puddle of Mudd ] another day.  KiSs mE

" If I know I can, I may not; but if I know I will, I surely can." [11 Jan 2008|11:49am] [ mood | determined ] [ music | Michael Buble- Feelin good ]  If nothing is going well, call your grandmother.  ~Italian Proverb Grandmothers always have time to talk and make you feel special. Catherine Pulsifer  ____________________________________________________________ My Grandma has this 6th sense about me i swear. Last night she called to "see if i was ok"... Grandma- "So how are things, mija?" Me- ::holds back tears:: "I don't know...." Grandma- "You don't know? That doesn't sound like the Renee i know...the Renee i know knows everything she wants..." AFter that i lost it. I cried and confessed how i've been unhappy lately...and how confused i was because it's not like me. It's funny how after telling her everything...she simplified my whole life and i felt like a jackass. Why do i always make things complicated? You'd think i'd learn the first 2307598750293847354958 times.  That's why i put up those quotes...my grandmother has this  way of lifting me up when no one else can. Mom and Daddy seem to have a negative influence on me...but it all gets broken with a talk from her.  Fear. Ever since i started college... It rules my life. Enough is enough. I can't live like this anymore. I'm not myself and i hate it. This isn't the person i wanted to be. The person i KNEW i could be. I feel like i'm in a bubble that i can't get out of. And what makes it even worse is the fact that i tell my parents i'm not happy and all they can say is..."Well just graduate and we'll figure things out."  I want to make a change. I NEED  a change. i can't BREATHE here. These four walls are all too familiar. I'm becoming this monster that i never knew existed. Enough. I can feel my old self growing more and more distant by each passing day. Enough. Today is the day i make it different.  It's a new dawn. It's a new day. It's a new life. Enough.  ________________________________________________________________________ " When you want your goal badly enough, feel the intensity of it, let it fuel your waking thoughts and actions, let it influence you in all ways possible and let nothing get in the way of achieving it." Written in 2008 by Kimerly Adamson --- New Zealand We spend our entire life wondering why we didn't do this and didn't do that, YOU ARE NOT DEAD! Maybe we did not accomplish something in the past but who says you can't do it now? 1 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

Star light, star bright...first star i see tonight.... [07 Jan 2008|11:40am] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | flashing lights- Kanye West ]  On January 5th, I, Amy Renee Hernandez...saw my first shooting star.  It was amazing... ...and yes...i DID make a wish... ::crosses fingers:: "...i wish i may...i wish i might...have the wish i wish tonight..." xoxo Amabilis Amy KiSs mE

maybe it's all in my head.... [13 Nov 2007|09:28am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Che faro senza Euridice ] think it was something you said.... i understand some things will never change. KiSs mE

"Back in the day when things were cool" [05 Nov 2007|07:34pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | back in the day (puff)-Erykah Badu ]   It's been too long journal...i've missed you. Things have gotten better...thank God October is over.  Band pretty much screwed me over this year...gettin paid late...not getting paid enough. ugh. Maybe he does this on purpose because he knows i won't do a damn thing about it. Again, thank God this Friday is the last game.  ahhhh "Orange moon" is playing right now...this song always reminds me of Thomas... I miss him so much. I hate this. Almost all my days have been wasted on daydreaming about him. I really want to make this work. It's definitely not a perfect relationship, but it's been amazing so far. I really am blessed to have him.  AAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH someone get me to Austin...STAT! "I'm an orange moon, i'm brighter than before,  brighter than ever before,  I'm an orange moon,  reflecting the light of my sun" Grampa is teaching me guitar. I'm so scared, honored, and excited at the same time.  my Grandma: "So many people have asked him for lessons, and he always says "no", pero he WANTS to teach you. He says you are "special"." (In my head): "awww! =) ::suddenly realizes all the pressure:: oh fuck.  I had my first lesson with him today. I most definitely have my work cut out for me. By next lesson i have to have all my major stuff down, because we'll be moving on to 7ths and minor, then rotations. Oh damn. Lets hope this goes well. I feel a bit overwhelmed with practicing. These are the things i need to practice... -Piano -O del mio amato ben -Eurydice -Silent Noon -che faro -guitar (major) -baritone .....we should vote to make days longer. We should at least have 48 hours in one day...just to get everything done. That would make my life SO much easier. ah. This weekend was fun!  Friday-school/friends/ dinner with family....it was really nice Saturday- Pan de Campo competition with family (SO MUCH FUN!), Nena picked me up to go see Ruben's baby, Eli Alexandro, the cutest baby in the world...had dinner with the lovely couple, Nena and Cyn, picked up some ice cream and LYDIA!!! Then headed back to Nena's house...lots of laughs...good music...one OK movie...lots of CUTE PETS! and most definitely LOTS OF BONDING WITH HER FAMILY! haha they're awesome.    Sunday- Family BBQ with grandparents...good food, football and family. What more could you want? Ok i know its lame...but i totally wanted to cry when Sabrina got eliminated from Dancing with the Stars....SHE DIDN'T DESERVE TO GO! =(   I hope they eliminate the old lady next....or Marie...they deserve to go! I hope the latino race car driver or Scary Spice wins!!!! ok...off to eat dinner and shower! Good bye!!!! KiSs mE

flippin idiots. [25 Oct 2007|09:47pm] Don't people have better things to do? KiSs mE

"Jai guru deva om" [15 Oct 2007|08:54pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Across the Universe-The Beatles ]  You know what? NOTHINGS GONNA CHANGE MY WORLD! No matter what, i will NOT let this get in the way. Focus on school. Focus on finishing. That degree holds the ticket to my freedom and TRUE happiness.  p.s. i love you Thomas =) Ay speaking of him...Thank GOD he's my boyfriend! Not even...thank GOD i have him to talk to! He's been so wonderful this past week...putting up with all the bullshit in my life and being ok with it. Olive Juice, buby, olive juice. So career wise...  I can't decide what makes me more happy... Teaching and watching my students grow or Singing/performing I love singing in Choir. I could never even begin to explain the feeling i get when every note just melts together. Every swell, every consonant, every chord just makes my heart surge with admiration. I've gotten so much better at singing soprano...i sang a high b natural today and it was fantastic...I'll work my way up to that high C....gimmie time...I can't deny my classical choral music.  It's definitely apart of me.(Yes, Franz Schubert, even though you died of syphilis i still love you) I just wish i could have some sort of musical/theater/jazzy outlet... But on the other hand...i love to see the kids every week...i love to hear their stories, and see them grow as musicians AND people. I see so much of myself in most of them. I want them to develop that musical exit from real life and just create and hone their talent. I'll put up with late checks and rude people if it means i get to be around my kids. I love you guys! Anyway... I ran into Obdulia today. I missed that girl so much! We spent about two class periods just catching up...it was wonderful.  I also got a RANDOM phone call from Corina! haha We'll finish our conversation ONE day...haha Ok...so with all the hype from Across the Universe....i have to write about the SONG... I've ALWAYS loved this song for some reason...ever since i was little it would put in a calming trance. My ultimate favorite Beatles song. And for your viewing pleasure...the lyrics.  "Across the Universe" Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting thorough my open mind Possessing and caressing me Jai guru deva om Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes That call me on and on across the universe Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears exciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns It calls me on and on across the universe Jai guru deva om Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Nothings gonna change my world Jai guru deva Jai guru deva  KiSs mE

What are YOUR kids watching? [10 Oct 2007|10:04pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | Legend Soundtrack ]  So...last night i stayed up till about 3 a.m. watching Requiem for a Dream. A surprisingly intriguing movie.... Tonight i finally got to see Pan's Labyrinth.  And after watching that, i was whisked back to my childhood. I remember watching Labyrinth with David Bowie and being so disturbingly fasinated. I fell in love with the story, the characters, and the aesthetic  point of view. But, why show this to an 8 year old? Why are most all of our childhood stories and nursery  rhymes so sinister?  Another movie that blew me away was Legend with Tom Cruise (1985) Another movie with cliche 80's music and typical plot with "good v. evil" but nonetheless, a good movie. I didn't know this but apparently The Lord of Darkness was played by Tim Curry! I never would've guessed... Anyway...back to my point... Has America become so P.C. and overprotective that we can't even show cartoons anymore that show violence? I heard some people made a motion to redo all the old Looney Toons cartoons to remove any type of smoking because it negatively influenced today's youth.  Give me a break. What they need to do is have the parents show their kids right from wrong. Parents today LOVE to blame everyone else for their children's problems. If your kid is causing a scene at the grocery store, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Don't just stand there and wait for the kid to figure it out! Unlike most creatures in the world, we are only born with SOME natural instincts. Parents are the foundation of children. Figure it out, mom and dad! ok so that was my rant for today. GO WATCH THOSE MOVIES IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THEM YET! 2 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

Being Daddy's little girl isn't all it's cracked up to be. [17 Sep 2007|06:39pm] [ mood | Ashamed ] [ music | Incubus ] The pressure of perfection is weighing heavily on me right now.  Be the perfect daughter, Amy.  Everyone is watching. I'm only me, what do i do?   2 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

"She shimmers like a California Sunset..." [27 Aug 2007|09:14am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Too hot to stop- The Bar-kays ] So, raise your hand if you're ready for the fall semester!!!!  Yeah i thought so.  I have SO much to update on...but to make it short and simple for your on-the-go lives.... -Quit Applebees (thank God) -Workin with EHS again (thank God) -School starts in about an hour for me -Tour was AMAZING -slowly learning Baritone -have a toothache the size of Alaska -have LOVE-ish emotions -no longer a "freshmen" -might move to Austin (still working out bugs) -SO IN LOVE WITH SUPERBAD thats just the tip of the ice burg but what can you do under a time limit? I'll probably update more tonight...it's a long story... i need to get ahold of District Choir music like NOW. xoxo Amy Le Singer 2 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

7-7-07 [07 Jul 2007|09:17pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | Erykah Badu- Orange Moon ] ok ok all the hype of 7-7-07 i have to admit is AMAZING! PLUS its my lucky number =) but today didn't feel that lucky to me.  -So to start the day off i had to work...lame.  -On the bright side....i got to see *S.A.N.D*.... but that turned out to be a bittersweet experience. Which left me completely bothered on the drive home. I can understand pulling back to save yourself from FEELING something...but...theres something about this one that makes me want to know more...and my heart knows better...he's not the one...he WON'T make me happy and to top it all off...he'll be leaving VERY soon. So whatever we shared was just shot to hell. Ok fate...whats next? Or better yet...WHO'S next? -Went to go see Daddy and the Wednesday Club at the Cook-off ...stuff my face with festival "junk food". -Got a raspa with my mommy and ran some errands  -came home to watch some T.V. with the rents (they complain i don't spend enough time with them) -some much needed computer time I had been wanting to talk about this for a while...is it just me or is a guys cologne a MAJOR factor of attraction? I hate to prove the "axe effect" correct but...it never fails, whenever i'm around a guy that SMELLS appealing to me, i seem to pass by them more and start conversations or stall to be around them longer...i know TOTALLY LAME...but it happens.  I think it goes back to the boyfriend factor...the holding...my face buried in his chest...inhaling his scent...then hours after being apart...i lay in bed and can still smell him on me. When in love, this is a major comfort. Me and Cyn had a whole intellectual conversation on this...that it all goes back to animal instincts...the whole butt sniffing thing but a little bit more refined. haha ok enough of that... Erykah Badu is my new infatuation. i have yet to find a song of hers that i DON'T like.  The song that has me hooked at the moment is "Orange Moon". Go listen to it. It's the ultimate mellow down song.  oh yeah and TRANSFORMERS is an amazing movie...by the end of it i wanted to BE  a transformer! haha! ok totally random but does anyone remember the little tune that the dude from Power Rangers used to call his sword? haha i was thinking of that today =) xoxo Renee 4 wHoRewHoReSKiSs mE

[16 Jun 2007|04:31pm] [ mood | trying to be patient ] [ music | Again-John Legend ]   The bad....Distance                    right person, wrong time                    stupid people The good....I finally found that iPod commerical song (the latin one) let me know if you want to know the title                      I absolutely LOVE Cynthia and Lydia                      Mauro and Ashley are the best cousins EVER                       Knocked Up is absolutely amazing                       starting over a "new leaf"                      2 jobs =)                      New music                       My family                      A new hair-cut, color and style Ok so i need to make a... TO DO LIST:     raise 80 smack-a-roos to get that stupid thing-a-majigger for my doohicky                             continue my mission                             stop trusting people so easily The flame continues to grow. And to quote Janet Jackson, i am "like a moth to a flame, burned by the fire" Why do i have the feeling you are like Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde? One person with me, a completely different person with them. I'm trying to see it from your point of view but you're not making it very easy. I will reluctantly give you time. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Keyo called me the other day, he finally learned the corps song...and automatically i flashed back to that same night when i learned the corps song. How much it moves me, even now thinking of the words and the meaning behind it makes me swell with pride and love. No matter where i go i know that i'll always have family. No matter what year you were, cadets are always family. I can't wait to go back. To perform. To be drivin. To be challenged. To learn. THATS where i need to be.  ~For Holy Name Shall ALWAYS Be~ Speaking of Holy name... Jill wrote me yesterday, she always seems to contact me at the right time. I swear she is the older version of me. I've never had so much respect and love for someone the way i do for her. Her words always make me unwind. We both need patience for life. We both want to jump the gun and get our lives started, but the sad part is we know better. She has that laugh that makes everyone smile. How can people posses that charm? Is it taught? If so sign me up for lessons. Shes simply an amazing woman. I'm glad we haven't fallen out of contact yet. Jill, i absolutely love you. =) Lord, i know what i want in life, please give me a sign on how to achieve it. Allow me the strength, courage, knowledge, and opportunity in life to influence, enlighten and encourage others. Fate, please grant me another opportunity. I am trying to patiently await you. Amen. KiSs mE

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